A Little Bit About Myself
To start my name is Cathleen and I am 29 years old. I have once child, age 6. I am not a fitness fanatic however I do eat properly and walk an average of 15 miles in total a week plus fun activities like hiking and skiing etc.
This is my story about the first time I wore a thong bikini, what it did for me and what the future holds for my swimwear collection.
Over the past 14 months, I have been forcing myself to step out of my comfort zone which to be honest has been a little scary at times yet exciting too, for example, I hate rollercoasters yet forced myself to go on a rollercoaster barrage that turned out to be a whole lot of fun after I got over my initial panicked anxiety state. I do not typically like spending a lot of time in the water yet this past summer, I forced myself to swim when ever I was at a cottage, pool or beach. l also tried waterskiing and wakeboarding. Public speaking is another thing that I absolutely hated and feared, so I took a public speaking course and volunteered to be the MC at a friend’s wedding, which by the way turned out to be extremely empowering.
Why Did I Want To Wear A Thong Bikini
For me, my comfort zone was a behavioral place where my activities and behaviors fit a pattern or routine that minimized my stress level and risk associated with that behavior. It provided a state of mental security that I was taught from a young age from my parents. By the way I am not bashing my parents either as its benefits are obvious for example, low stress, reduced anxiety and a regulated fun level, but I also realized that it regulated my confidence as a person and limited me as a woman.
The concept of optimal anxiety by pushing yourself out of those comfy zones is by no means a new concept. Almost everyone has an example of a time when they were forced outside of their comfort zone and achieved something amazing. That feeling of accomplishment is not only empowering but creates an adrenalin rush that is completely addictive, thus my desire to keep pushing my boundaries.
My point of the Coles notes above is that I am trying to force myself to face my fears, become a better person and enjoy life to its fullest. So, my Finance, Jordan and I had planned a trip to Nassau Paradise Island in the Bahamas. It was a trip we had been talking about since we had met three and a half years ago.
By the way, I am not a prude, I do enjoy wearing a bikini and have quite a collection to be honest but while we were planning our trip, Jordan had made a joke and said I should step out of my bikini comfort zone and get a thong bikini for the trip. Well my first reaction was “NO” but to be honest the thought never really left my mind, I never told Jordan that, but it seemed to be a good idea. It was another opportunity for me to step outside of my space and experience something different. The opportunity to step outside of my comfy place I think was more appealing than wearing the thong at the time.
This whole thong episode churned through my mind for months leading up to the trip, not that I had bad thoughts or that I was scared, it just seemed different. Let’s be honest there is no real stigma attached to the thong bikini anymore. The thong is as normal on a beach as the sand itself and they really are the norm. Cheeky style bikinis are far more popular than any other bikini style whether it be in cottage country, local beach, pool or resort vacation. I think it’s simply exposing so much of one’s self that causes the anxiety, I don’t think it’s the outcome, I think it is much more personal than that or it was for me.
I decided that this vacation was going to include a thong bikini and off shopping I went. I purchased not just one, but I decided just in case I liked them, I purchased two, a little red thong bikini and a yellow one. The yellow one was a considered a Tonga which has slightly more coverage than a thong but not much more and the red one was a true thong bikini. I had what I came for and off I went home to slide these new garments into the bottom of my suitcase for another day.
So, the vacation was planned and we flew out of Wisconsin on Friday March 8th 2019. The flight was smooth taking about 3 hours 45 minutes. We landed and the weather was as beautiful as we had dreamed, clear skies, hot with crystal clear water like I had never seen before.
We stayed at the Ocean Club Four Seasons Beach Front Resort which by the way was absolutely beyond my wildest imagination and exceeded our expectations by a long shot. We got settled for the first day, but that bug was in me, I kept thinking about those thong bikinis hidden securely at the bottom of my suitcase. Now it was not that I was scared, to be honest I was looking forward to trying on my new bikinis and strolling out to the pool but thinking back it was more about when was the right time.
Its Time For The Thong
Well Jordan lasted in the room about ten minutes and wanted to head to the pool, well more like the pool bar so I told him to go ahead, order me a drink and I would be along in few minutes. As soon as the door shut behind him, I was off to my suitcase to get my hands on those new bikinis, I decided to try the yellow Tonga first, I slipped it on and put on a pair of new wedges through a towel over my arm, put on my sunglasses freshened up my makeup and headed out the door.
The feeling was not what I had expected, I had envisioned this as being a stressful situation full of anxiety and regret, yet it was weirdly freeing and empowering. I felt good about myself and was excited about my first entrance onto the pool deck.
My First Thong Interaction or Should I Say Reaction
I strolled down the narrow beautifully detailed paths and quickly found the pool. I located Jordan patiently sitting on stool already sipping on his second drink. I took a deep breath and headed straight for him, I walked up to the pool bar and the young bartender said, “Wow, what can I get for you beautiful” LOL, this got Jordan’s attention. I was not flaunting it just smiling in all my glory.
I don’t want to waste your time detailing the whole week so I will try to summarize the experience. Jordan loved me in my new bikinis, there were a couple of times when he showed a little bit of jealousy towards some apparent new found friends I had, but I found as long as you acted appropriately for the most part it was just like wearing any other bikini.
I also noticed that many women were also intrigued by the thongs, kind of interesting actually. For me, it was just another opportunity to step out of my comfort zone. Like I mentioned earlier, I think it was the fact that I was showing more of myself then I traditionally would be comfortable with however the experience was to say the least exciting.
How I Felt Actually Wearing The Thong For The First Time
For me the experience of wearing a thong bikini was exceptionally positive, I think because I had never been the type of person that spent a lot of time thinking about my body appearance, more about being healthy yet all of a sudden, I felt different it the sense of special.
Once I got the thong on and wore it down by the pool on the first day, I felt extremely confident in myself, for some reason, it boosted my self-esteem. It added a certain amount of contentment in my being and a realization that I was in fact feminine and strong.
Another positive outcome was that I was motivated to increase my physical activity, not necessarily a gym regime but to a get out there and increase my physical activity and experience more of life and add more to my already healthy lifestyle, ok admittingly probably to look even better in my new bikini wardrobe, that’s no a bad thing either, right?
In summary, for me personally, wearing a thong on the beach was a personal challenge. It was another opportunity for me to push my boundaries, the outcome was far more rewarding than I could have foreseen.
Looking back, I had Jordan take some pics of me in both of my thongs, but we went to a secluded unmaintained location of the beach where it was private and away from the ocean and people, I wish I had taken some photos on the beach front. But there is always next time. We are planning our next trip and have already purchased a new swimsuit. This time it is a one-piece matte black thong with high cut hips and a plunging neckline. Can’t Wait